“What would happen if one woman told the truth about her life? The world would split open”—Muriel Rukeyser
“What would happen if one woman told the truth about her life? The world would split open.” These words by Muriel Rukeyser sum up my goals as a writer, at least that is what I thought. It is the reason I began publishing my work. I believe that honest conversation is a beginning step towards understanding among people, and is a step that we can all work towards a more unified world.
This year without doubt has been filled with several ups and downs. With these have come distractions and changes to life plans. One thing I did not expect to change was my goals. I have strongly held to my ideals, that my writing is a way to tell my honest story and to work towards understanding others.
With such turbulence I began to feel the pressure to change my message in order to grow my audience and to ultimately make more money. I feel the pressure to help my family succeed financially. It kills me to watch my family starve or go without because I can’t work. This pressure has changed me and taken my love and passion for writing away.
Despite changing my message I still find that success eludes me. I sit here drinking what is left of yesterday’s coffee. I realize I changed myself, my message, my art. Everything that makes me the writer and person I am and I am left with nothing.
The feeling of disappointment only motivates the fighter in me to work harder, but more than that it pushes me to return to the person I have always been, return to my goals. If I cannot make financial success for my family then I will at least give them the gift of my honesty. With some luck, maybe I can contribute to my kids and grandkids having a better life than I have had.
I plan to return to my goals and what this means for my beloved fans is that I will still post my stories here and you can always read them here on the blog for free. What is going to be changing is I plan on posting to twitter and on my blog posts that relate to honesty. I will reveal my life without filters. I want to blow this world up with the truth. I sincerely hope that you will join me on this journey. Ultimately, I hope I can inspire others to tell their truth without filters, let’s be honest and blow this world up with honesty.
Peace out French Fries,